Ankis Identity

The unexpected and unforeseen days of troubles are the ones everyone tires to avoid. Somehow, however, this delighted day turned into a day of problems. Stress at work tension with relationships and panic + irritation with myself; make it hard to stay positive when things go wrong. Tripping, wearing to hot clothes, destroying things and making a complete fool of myself does not even begin to describe my day. Yet not much in my life has be up lately. From sickness within my family, cousin and aunt, to stress about my future (med school and such), till complex issues within relationships... where do we go from here? My life seems turned upside down. What used tp be the ups or now the downs. As the downs just burn into my soul. Where did the happiness go? Watching Catwoman, cant help but make me think. Is it a bit morbid to wish to die so a whole new chance in life can be given? To make life worth living again, to fight for what's right, be a confident, sexy, unafraid and elegant woman... Sometimes I wonder if I demand to much... from myself I demand perfection, my friends sincerity and acceptance, and from my family unconditional understanding and love.. Why cannot the troubled days be rare? As I'm sitting here dreaming away, my old issues and insecurities seem to haunt my current reality. Unsure of were things lie or how things look in the future, I try to survive on the motto: Live every day till the fullest! Somehow I just cant seem to make each day to the fullest . . .
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