Sitting at the edge of the window ceil, gazing out into the breezy autumn night has unlocked my mind to a hidden thought. On this puzzling night complex matters mystify this mind and seek its attention. Yet it continues to wonder... my little dog is fast asleep on the bed already, twitching and breathing heavy. Her small paws twitch for a second then without a sound she turns around and continues to dream... Turning again to face the outside world I wonder what good these suppressed thoughts actually have or wheatear they are doing me any good? Having been suppressed for quite some time, has urged them to reappear and cloud my mind. Maybe it’s all the sugar in my body, or perhaps a clear mind that brought up the issue... all I know is that I’m sitting here in my window ceil starring out in this august night thinking about the past, present and future... and what it has to bring?
Begin sick this week has acutally allowed me to sit here and be an absolute teen... The all nighters, the long sleep ins, catching up with friends, annoying family, and Watching Movies has become the best part of my life!! Sitting here in front of my computer, i just enjoyed one of those great things; seeing a great movie! If you need a laugh or are just down right bored i really think you should give this movie a try! Heres the trailer for you...
Hur trött jag en är så kan jag inte låt bli att vara glad… äntligen är det fredag!! Så skönt att det blir helg snart, men det ska bli konstigt att sluta jobba inom hemvården. Nästan hela sommarn har jag jobbat inom Hemvården i Vallentuna. Det känns nästan som ett kapitel i sitt liv tar slut och man blir kastade in i nästa. Mitt liv har gått ut på att vakna klockan 5, springa till bussen och sen spendera hela dagen på att cykla runt i Vallentuna centrum från sommarvägen till forminnesvägen runt tillbaka till centrum för att handla. Hahah Jag tror att jag kan vara en bra guide till Vallentuna om det behövs! Fast det känns tråkigt att sluta och framtiden är ” still in the unknown” känns det ändå bra att få lite semester (Spain here i come!). Denna vecka har gått så otroligt snabbt och jag kommer att sakna jobbet, men denna veckan har också visat att jag verkligen behöver ta det lite lugnt. Att vara sjuk är inte så skoj! Nu ligger jag här med lite cola, popcorn och en film… Hmm jag verkligen nyttar av att det är Fredag!!
Have you ever been really jealous of someone... thinking “WOW! I wish I was more like her/him?” You seek to get the same attention they get or accomplish the same accomplishments they do. To let you in on a little secret there was a friend that I want to be more like... I did almost anything to be more like her. Her randomness, her ability to face anything with a smile and her talent to be exceptional in anything she does and yet at the end of the day just be downright normal. I wished I could be more like her (and still do sometimes).
Sorry for the random outburst just sitting here in front of the tv being a tad bit jealous of these exceptional people you see on tv.. From dancers on So you think You can dance? To chefs in Hell’s kitchen all seem to have their amazing talents, and exceptional pretty looks...
Sometimes you cannot help but be a tad be jealous ;P OxO Anki OxO
This blogg is dedicate to one of the Best Friends I have in this world...
ANNA -HaPpY BiRtHdAy!!!! I hope u have a great birthday filled with all ur wishes, dreams and delights come true! Here is me trying to sing a song for you! Enjoy ;P
Happy birthday toooo you happy Birthday tooo you Happy birthday dear ANNA.... Happy birthday tooooooooooooo uuuuuuuuuuu!!!!
Have you ever felt like whatever you do... your always considered average? Hidden by the popular... the sophistic... or the attractive in society, we, the average, never seem to stand out. Wheatear we try through grades (the studying for nights in a row), looks (the endless diets, training programmes and following the changes in fashion each month) or even personality (helping your friends through crisis, being the perfect girlfriend or just downright being funny) standing out is harder when you’re just “AVERAGE”. The sophistic are gifted with money and grades, the popular in the looks and personality and the attractive... well let’s just say they are damn attractive. My point is the need to be more than average haunts a lot of people. I find myself thinking sometimes why couldn’t I be more like Jessica Alba; she is sexy, fun and loving? Or like her; she is dead smart, knows her goals and looks good? Or more like her, her body is to kill for and she does not even know it? What happened to me? Why do I have to be average...? Or what all girls love to hear “U are just CURVEY/ Womanly figured ”yes...thank u... From early days the standards are placed upon us to live up too. The need to be pretty, intelligent, and fun is not only a wish but a DEMAND! Not everyone enjoys to be Average. I know I don’t....
In our world, the ability to tell the truth is often cloudy by the need to meet social and moral standards. When shopping with a friend, telling that friend the truth can be both heartbreaking and mean. If a top looks hideous being straight forward with this truth may lead to breakdown. Instead you cloud the truth to meet social and moral standards; the top is really nice, though I think the blue top would really bring out your eyes. Clouding the truth for this reason does not mean you are lying yet you bend the rules to make sure you are not hurting anyone. Therefore it is fair to say that the truth can occasionally be hidden with underlying messages. Like the scenario with a friend you are hiding the fact that the top does not suit him/her. As many people might know hiding the truth within messages can both be used as a device to stop someone from being directly mean or indicating something to another person. Maybe this is a very feminine thing to do, but we girls hide messages in what we are saying. These are not intend to confuse the boy gender or to be mean, however, are mere used to give guys the message we are too afraid to say. So men... as a friend I beg of you please read in between the lines you’ll thank me later ;p Xox Anki xoX
Feeling on the sick side of life today with a little bit of a fever, the decision to stay in bed was a sure choice. The evil cold has managed to stick to my throat making me extremely tired and a tad on the irratable edge. Lucky the nice weather and the lovely people around me, sure made me feel that speck better. My mom spoiled me by tucking me into the sofa with the remote, drinks and drugs. My friends cheered me up with long talks and La Bf spoiled me with romantic comments that gave me fever.Haha However, being alone for the most part of the day made me think more and more about my unknown future. The more I think about what the future holds, the more I hope that my dream can come true. I am nothing special without it and the dream to help other people is more than just a dream... its my everything. Oxo Anki oxO
Ps. I want to give a shout out for the Best dance movies Step Up 2 - the Streets
God Morgon/Eftermiddag! Haven slept 11 hours i can say that Im as good as well rested. This was the first time in quite a while where i acutally slept like a princesses... no scary nightmares, no little poochy cuddling up beside me (molly!) and no waking up worried and bewildered (whats my name?). Still a little tired, i went downstairs and drank one BIG glass of milk and then went back to bed. Molly and Me cuddled up in my big blanket and refused to get out of bed. I am still in my pjs! With the swedish autum wheater back in stockholm and my head feeling a little dizzy, i decided to spend the day in.bed with a big glass of hot obey in one hand and a good movie in the other. As you see in the picutre a little candy on the side was sure yummis too. There went that healthy strike again :S Ooh well life is worth living! Sorry guys that i didnt make the tjej-träffa today! I sure miss ya all! Well im going back to watch more movies in my pjs Hug-huggies Xox Anki xoX
Many people say that it's choice - not chance. That determines our destiny, yet how much choice does one have with BAD chances... Today was just one of those days where everything that can go wrong will. Shit happens I know... but even that was underestimated today. Waking up late which in turn meant missing the train, having the next train late which means missing the bus which then means 40 minutes late to work is hardly I winning reputation or a great start to any day... Sigh! Adding the wonderful Swedish summer weather of full right raining storm does not exactly make you in the bestest of moods either. To make this situation worse . . . ohh yes it can get worse!! Well let's just say that bad luck was very big on today's menu. Ush ush! The bike almost broken, my shoe got destroyed, I missed my train home. ALSO!!! I have a great... curvy...big... ass... grrr I really hate his. In which other country to girls that look like supermodels become a group, not just one but they are millions of them. Or where there are a whole site just rating hot girls and guys? Think about it!??! I can't not come up with a country. To be honest maybe deep down I'm jealous of them, who wouldn't want to look like they do, just wish there was something that could be done about it. I've been eating quite health now for the past 5 days and nothing has happened. Exercising is the only thing missing I guess, but something should have happened right?
As I said...God can we please settle this! I may not be a major believer but please show some mercy XoX Anki XoX
360 degree angles wheatear in mathematical solutions or reality illustrates how we live our lives. 360 degree angles illustrates what we as humans are capable off. 180 degrees describes our thoughts and action, while 90 degree angles illustrate our uplighting moments. However, when 90 degree angles have disappeared, 180 angles are broken, what we are capable off and how we function seems irrational. Today, the 90 degrees seem to have become unproportional. Shopping with my girls made me realise just how kaput the 90 degrees are, in simpler terms, how big I have gotten. Going up a dress size to any girl is a horrible "uplighting" moment. Wheatear this makes you realise that you hate the way you look (yes yuck) or you need to start a diet hmmm yes); the 90 degrees were not proportional today. Having the day off from work is fantastic... yet my thoughts lead to yet another sleepless night. Future threats, additionally, seem demanding if not impossible to deal with. Should your life really be over at 19??? People say: There "will" be hope. . . Things "will" change. . . Life "will" get better. . . This week appears to prove that "will" is just another illusion and "will not" is the reality. Maybe I am a tad bitter, nevertheless I hardly feel that bad luck begins to describe it. If so, I wonder if I broke a mirror: S The 180 degrees, not only describe my state of mind, on the contrary even my actions. Have I caused my actions to have become incoherent or misinterruptedable? Maybe my actions exemplify my thoughts; however, even if they are at 180 degrees in the wrong direction they have not turned the full circle! The only thing that seems to be missing now is my ability to function . . . Uncertain where my life is heading or how I'm going to cope, I'm happy to have some wonderful friends that help me on the road. Thank you Anna (for today without you 360 degrees wouldn’t exist OxO Anki Oxo
The unexpected and unforeseen days of troubles are the ones everyone tires to avoid. Somehow, however, this delighted day turned into a day of problems. Stress at work tension with relationships and panic + irritation with myself; make it hard to stay positive when things go wrong. Tripping, wearing to hot clothes, destroying things and making a complete fool of myself does not even begin to describe my day. Yet not much in my life has be up lately. From sickness within my family, cousin and aunt, to stress about my future (med school and such), till complex issues within relationships... where do we go from here? My life seems turned upside down. What used tp be the ups or now the downs. As the downs just burn into my soul. Where did the happiness go? Watching Catwoman, cant help but make me think. Is it a bit morbid to wish to die so a whole new chance in life can be given? To make life worth living again, to fight for what's right, be a confident, sexy, unafraid and elegant woman... Sometimes I wonder if I demand to much... from myself I demand perfection, my friends sincerity and acceptance, and from my family unconditional understanding and love.. Why cannot the troubled days be rare? As I'm sitting here dreaming away, my old issues and insecurities seem to haunt my current reality. Unsure of were things lie or how things look in the future, I try to survive on the motto: Live every day till the fullest! Somehow I just cant seem to make each day to the fullest . . . XoX Anki XoX
Wow! Finally the summer weather has come to Sweden! It sure took its time, seeing as according to Greek weather It's about two months too late if not early, but hey it sure cheers you up... at least a bit. Sorry for the absences in the blogs.With my 5 year old cousin being seriously ill, working and guy problems, there is not much time to sit down and write. My cousin, Oliver, has gotten really sick since the beginning of last week. With a high fever, incoherent speech, inability to walk or identify his parents, my stress level has been through the roof these days. I just talked with my aunt and he is home from the hospital today, which hopefully means it was just a virus instead of a brain inflammation. But yet again that is not certain... Ush... this just gets me thinking about my future. I want to be able to be there for him, not only for support but to make a difference/make him better. I wonder if I'll ever be a doctor? Any fungus, life must go on as the famous saying goes.
As that wasn't enough to bring me down... I oooh so lately discovered that my interesting Mr. wonderful is not oooh so wonderful. As in most relationships some small things as taking the time to meet, saying "I love you", and learning to cope with one another is what all relationships must go through. There are times in which we fight, times in which we are the happiest people alive and times were you just want to be free, HOWEVER. . . In which relationship could couples survive on just love? The fairytale pictures print it to be something that always works. Prince saves Princesses and they live happily ever after. However, out here in the big big world, problems of distance, impractical circumstances and even allergies are out there just to mess with you. Maybe somehow the fairytale love will get couples through this... I'm just having a HARD time believing that love will always be the answer .Being a fairytale girl since as long as I can remember this fact is breaking my heart more then ever... Is it normal to have been together for 6 months and haven't (and won't ever) get the chance to spend a minute inside each others houses? Can it still work? Will love solve this? I am just not so sure.
The demands of our currently lifestyle are not ones easily met. Wheatear educational or personally, the demands placed upon us, since before our birth, are sometimes that more challenging to complete. In society today for example, being at the top of your game at very time is significant without a doubt. Being at the top of your class gives you a great future career, being nice and generous will give you plenty of friends, being the prefect girlfriend will make you attractable, being hilarious and clever will make you a prefect employee, but beyond that.... simple aspects as looking good is merely Essential. Looking a certain way is not optional yet has become a vital part of survival. Have you ever meet a pretty person that is depressed? A suicidal guy/girl that looks like a supermodel? Sure they may have doubts, do drugs or smoke (as many do to stay looking prefect), but are they ever troubled with normal people's problems? Maybe Hollywood hides that part, but in my years I haven't seen anyone that has great looks that is unconfident, unsexy, not packed with friends and does not do well in school. Maybe it is my green envy monster speaking out from under me, but as shallow as it may seem, wanting to be that prefect person that is untouchable and desirable is a dream. Maybe happiness and success only comes to the people you meet the demands of our currently lifestyle. All I know is the demands of our currently lifestyle may be hard to meet at times, but for some are a simple leap to victory.
XoX Anki XoX
Ps. One day I will be a size 4 or 6. I swear upon this day!
With the repression of my future stresses, the Swedish summer vacation is going by fast. Waking up early today with the wonders of food poisoning I decided to stay home from work and recovery as much as I could. Within a couple of hours I was back to my old ooh so "fun" self. Scratch all the names I used before, but Mr. Wonderful came after his work interview at Amnesty! I was so proud of him today, He got the job! hahah He is really thrilled about it. Anyhowie back to my thoughts... The rain pouring in the background, my thoughts go to the wonders of vacation. Personally there is not going to be much vacation on my part. With working, helping mom and dad, meeting friends and boyfriend there is not much time for fitting an actually "relaxation" vacation in. On the other side, with great days like this that does not really matter. The hush hushness of the situation leaves much to be mysterious, but having spent a day with Mr. wonderful, I guess I'm for once feeling aok. I additionally got a mail from my university: S they are just letting us know that the results of our examinations are going to the University. I am dreadfully scared, but for now it's repressed! Enjoy this day everyone, the sunny middays, the raining afternoons, and the wonders of summer.
Here I am, sitting up to late at night, stressing, worrying and having the common problem of not being able to sleep. For most of you, it may be stupid or even pathetic, but the questions, concerns and the constant worrying about the future has left sleep as the most dangerous time during the day. Before you fell asleep the repressed thoughts we refuse to confront any other time takes the wind out of us... You are just there . . . . Thinking . . . Lying there in bed going over what you could have done? What you did wrong? How could this have happened?!? How did this happen? It's just one of "those" days were the negative thoughts cannot seem to leave you alone. Sometime soon I have to face my own demons explaining to the universities that I did not make the grades they wanted me to have by far! How do you tell someone something so big when they have expected so much more. Any suggestions, clues, or hints? The possibility of convincing such a university is low, but the pain of just lying in bed thinking about it makes you crazy!
It is very strange to think that the life you always wished for flashing before your eyes before you even lived it. XoX Anki XoX
Have you ever had one of those days where the thin line between fantasy and reality is faced? The temptation of fantasy seems as a prefect dream. While when the reality finally hits you, you remember why that fine line exists. Haven woken up at 5 for work the past three days, the line between fantasy and reality is sometimes left vivid. Your dreams and fantasy are filled with lovely images, hopes and wishes where even simple things that seem hard now are simple and clear. In reality, however, the mere decisions of what you ate for lunch haunt you through the day; even the decisions we make can lead to a false move or a twist in faith. Why can't reality be fantasy? Why can't reality be fantasy? Hearing the tales of the past from work has made me realize (how dull and typical it may seem) that out in this big world, we actually decide our own fantasy. Although I continue to dream that my fantasy was my reality, I have to accept that my fantasy won't be my reality unless I make it so. How we live our life, how we bring ourselves back from failure and how we grow all depends on who we are and what we want our fantasyful dream to be. That kind of sucks I know! But I believe my own failure lead me to realize that I may be down now, but somehow I have to bounce back. I refuse to let one false move or twist in faith let me lie on my death bed and tell tales of how good the PAST used to be. The past can be dull, boring and even horrible at times (believe me I have heard it all), but what you make of the PRESENT and how to relive your past is what makes your fantasy... Destiny. OxO Anki OxO
As you may know, everyone has expectations. Wheatear personal expectations, moral expectations, family's expectations or friend's expectations, how much damage do these expectations really make? Has anyone, even yourself, stop and thought what am I doing to myself? When your personal expectations are destroyed, your moral expectations do not matter, behavioural well they are upside down, the other expectations have more a toll on you then you may think. Why haven't you got your driver's license? Why aren't you studying? Can you stop doing that! Small things that normally may not bring a person to their knees is just what this expectations are doing to me. I'm suppose to be the smart one . . . you all know that failed. I'm suppose to be the one with a future . . . that failed. I'm suppose to be the "prefect" person or prefect friend. . . guess that I failed that too! Instead, I am using all my energy to keep myself from drowning. Some people may think I am all fine, I'll bounce back right? Has anyone ask me how I'm doing? If I'm feeling ok or wheatear I may need anything? Don't worry! i know you may have other things on you mind. I guess we all have expectations. . . Most of them just FAIL!!
Over the past few days the only thoughts going around in my head are the ones of total defeat, suffering, and hurtfulness. My "supposedly" great friends seem to have disappeared from the earth. When you really need them where are they? I need you! Maybe I am being critical, but when a friend needs you, then your only duty in life is to be there for them. Then why can't mine be there for me when I need them. Have i done something wrong? Did i make them angry? Did I ignore them? Then came the thought of my future. When your friends are not there, you cannot help but fall back to the cycle of sadness and suffering for your future. The feelings of defeat are back in your mind. Mr Bf says that defeat is nothing but education and it just leads to the first step to something better but how can i move on, when i cannot even face the thought of admitting defeat. All this seems dense as i say yet again but then why cant i move on. Should I try fix my future, should i wait?? Why did I let this happen?!?! Sorry ladies and gentes for the sadness in my blogs, just finding it hard to bounce back from complete defeat.Thanks Mr Bf, you know who you are, for being there for me when I need you the most OxO Anki Oxo
Pain is inevitable; suffering is optional - M. Kathleen Casey Once you have failed your dream or your dream seems to have lost hope, pain is something that comes almost directly.
Wheatear this is inevitable or not, it comes and it hurts. After i found out of my IB score, my body feels like its fading away my hopes of the future are gone and my only wish is to survive to the next day. It sounds really dense seeing as there are ways to make your dreams come true like resists, taking the long way and study individual subjects or even studying in a different country. Yet the suffering for me isn't optional . . . its reality. The let down, the disappointment and the suffering inside my body is indescribable. Yes, there are more important things in the world, since as starvation and unemployment, but when you have spent soo much time on holding on to one dream and now its gone... what can i say? You are left with a feeling of resentment. What did I do wrong? Why did this happen to me? Am I really that dumb? All you are left with is the continual pain and suffering.. For that reason Suffering isn't optional its REALITY. XoX Anki XoX
Today is the day when the destiny of high school graduates all around the world is decided. Wheatear they will succeed to carry out their hopes and dreams or wheatear failure awaits them, these results may change their lives forever. Arthur Golden once said "A mind troubled by doubt cannot focus on the course to victory" yet how can anyone in their right mind not be troubled by doubt. The whole future, wheatear undecided or decided, relays on the results of your IB exams. If like me, the thought of that makes you panic! You may just understand how scary it is to discover that you will either become a doctor or you failed and that chance blows you by. People around you entrust you with courage, hope and the power that somewhere out there someone is secretly helping you. But when you are sitting in these shoes, a great opportunity like med school is just around the corner the thought of even discovering failure is horrible. Death even seems to be the golden treasure at the end of the rainbow. People say if you believe in yourself what you want will eventually be achieved, but i cant help but feel the fear of failure. I can probably say I tried my best, but sometimes that is not enough..... Anyhow,
Good luck everyone today and As Beverly Sills said You may be disappointed if you fail, but your doomed if you don't try.
They say that those who believe in Love believe in the impossible, yet is love complex or is it predetermined that it has to be complex for the situation to work. Wheatear love actually is complex or wheatear it is only as simple as we make it out to be, Love is and may always be the impossible. For some people the complexity of love relays on simple matters as remembering to say I love you or you mean the world to me, while others, including myself, faces problems where love is made out to be the triumph of Imagination and Dreams. I think it's safe to say that love is neither the triumph of imagination or dreams but instead arises with complexity and impossibility that can either bring us together or drive us apart. The fairytale endings that have been inbreed in our minds since the age of five do not seem to come true in reality. Here we face problems as allergies, the rumble of parents and situations of morals. Hate to burst the bubble, since a true believer of love at first sight and the whole fairytale ending is what I crave, but has society finally received the point where this cannot happen? I hope someone will stand up and say "boy your wrong!" but until then here I sit with Mr. Bf having the same troubles over and over again. The love I fell for him has been like nothing before, but once the first sparkles are over and you went the normal relationship everyone else has. From sitting at home in your pjs to simple movie nights, is it really impossible for that to occur? As Mr. Bf says "love will conquer all," but can it really when all the time you spend is never in the normal circumstances? Love is great but I'm unsure if I believe in the impossible.¨
OxO Anki OxO
Ps. Saw Narina 2 - Prince Caspain today!!! Great but why?!?! ooh why?
Have you ever had one of those days where nothing seems to go your way? From waking up before you want to cause someone rings the doorbell, having to go to ICA Maxi three times to get the right things, or perhaps starting a diet that then fails due to starvation or the need for Mc Donalds. Maybe you can identify yourself in these shoes or perhaps just feel relieved that just that did not happen to you today! Lucky me cause today was just one of those days for me. Aggravation due to having to go to ICA Maxi three times (what happened to all competence just cause you work in a store does not necessary mean that all brain power needs to be terminated), annoyance for someone ringing the doorbell waking you up on your only sleep in morning (I know I know, not their fault but when they did it and later change their minds then there is annoyance), Anger at trying to lose weight but never getting the right opportunity. Sorry for the downside of the blog tonight ladies and gentlemen but I got to let my A's out somehow right? XoX Anki XoX
Pythagoras once said "Friends are as companions on a journey, who ought to aid each other to persevere in the road to a happier life."
Over the past few months, true friendships seemed to have become more defined. Your true friends stick by you in the nasty of times, even when you cannot stand the thought of ever speaking again. Real friends should for that reason only take a matter of seconds to forgive you for simple misunderstands to complex arguments. True friends are also the ones that understand you the best, even when you yourself is terribly lost and confused. Having graduated high school, moved to a different country and even taken a break from studying, I have discovered that your true "soulmate" friends are the ones that stick by you/stand by you even when times get rough. When work takes the better of us, attitudes turn cold and when organizing an event seems like a mile stone of work, your true friends are the ones outside your door with lots of candy in one hand and the latest gossip to cheer you up in the other. In this sense, Friendship is something meaningful and the bond between two people is indescribable (is that even a word: S?). Friendship no longer consists of holding on to what one gives, but remembering what one receives.
While some strong friendships are reforming, others fail to meet up to that prefect standard. The not so "true" friends are the ones that find any reason to pick a fight, make everyone else see you as a horrible individual and even go so low as to blame one another for not keeping contact or even make mean comments. The line between great friends and good friends are the length they are willing to go to keep you as a great friend. My point is: Having been through the ups and downs of friendship I think it's fair enough to say that I have some clue when it comes to the prefect friends, the fakers, and the ones that just use you for the ride...Yet I find myself sitting here and thinking . . .
What happened to perserving the road to happiness?or Forgotting the giving and remembering receiving? xOx Anki xOx
A good friend of mine once gave me a poem which read:
Everyday's a perfect gift of time for us to use. Hours waiting to be filled in any way we choose. Each morning brings a quiet hope that rises with the sun. Each evening brings the sweet content that comes with work well done.
At first I was bewildered having no clue what this poem meant. Is the poet referring to the times we spend wasting away where perhaps a job could allow us an opportunity to progress or is simply stating the fact that with a job comes greater contentment? Unsure what its inner meaning was somehow figured that it has something to do with my day at work. As some of you may know my interest to become a doctor has made my summer job applications anything and everything concerning the medical world. Wheatear in a dark room investigating some new drugs or working with people in a hospital lobby, anything that had the smallest link to the medicine is what i applied for. After 55 job applications, only two choices reminded! That was working with Human rights or Working with the elderly. Seeing how mostly, i like spending time with friends and family i decided to go for the social job (human rights had more brief encounters). So now I'm working in Vallentuna, a 40 min ride from my house which isn't that bad, with the elderly. Having worked little over a week now, I'm starting to miss my vacation. The long sleep in mornings, the endless things to do, the junk food needed to be consumed involved a great deal of more fun. Instead I am up at dawn, ok maybe not that early indeed, to help people which sometimes aren't very grateful. This is the point where you wonder was getting a job all worth it in the end? But then comes the end of the labor day and right when you think the day cannot end fast enough someone comes up or someone just speaks up to tell you how much they appreciate all the help. That's when you realize today I accomplished work well done.
That sentence took me about 10mins to come up with. I know pathetic its just a blog right, but hey the first blog you write is suppose to be exicting, filled with all lifes questions just waiting to be answered. . . haha Lets not pretend i have all the answers yet (im not that old!), but instead i want to think of my blog as a dairy online. No this is not going to turn out to be a pathetic one(like today i went and got my hair done and it like looks sooo cool!) hahah i think there are enough of those already. To be honest i may not write something meaningful either just a little diary to myself where expressing my views, the real scoop, and the dirty gossip will be my life. Do you really need more out of a blog? So your probabley asking why write a blog in the first place? Sometimes when our busy lifes take a hold of us we forgot to keep in touch with the many people who stand you close. Although this is silently more impersonal then sending everyone a mail or givig them a call(which i would love to do) its hard to find the time to sit down and do just that. Sometimes you find yourself doing other things that waste your time as msn, work or the tv (the wondersof tv). It just shows you how short a day really is. Anyhow, i think i have spend enough time blabbling on for one night. Hope you enjoyed yourself
