Ankis Identity

Even though we try really hard to keep things together sometimes it just comes to the point where nothing is enough. Basically is just a little too late. Although the saying refers to money being a day late, this saying has much more meaning. Over the past couple of months things/actions have made me think about this specific idiom; too little too late. From all my lets down this summer, my personality has changed... I tired really hard to be a nice, kind, fun-loving and friendly person. I must have done something wrong since they are little people who would describe me like that, instead I have “good study skills,” that’s what is used to describe me (maybe that is just me...) After a while I got tired. I got tired of continual trying to be nice when all I get back is a cold fish and a stab in the back. I used up all my energy, put it all into making it work... But at one point I realised that all this energy, doesn’t contribute to anything. There are some things which do not work even if I tried my hardest, ignored the signs and refused to give in. I now realize that these factors will never change. No matter how much heart you put into things for some reason it’s just not working. I’m too tired to keep fighting for something that doesn’t work. I tired but now I can’t do this anymore. It will hurt but nothing can change the situation or my mind. It is just too little too late.

Xox Anki xox